How can i survive under these conditions?

Look you just can't go there without money and be homeless. For now why don't you work a full time job and maybe also work evenings till you get a lump sum of money saved? Then you would be able to move there and get established with a full time job, an apartment, and marry the Mother. Marrying the Mother will provide the most ideal security for your child and ure that you will be there every day in your baby's life. Seek employment where you can learn a trade on the job and later you can go to night school. Your child's needs can't be postponed until you and the Mother graduate college. You both have a moral and legal duty to begin providing for the child. I understand you are going through a lot of stress but it will be very rewarding if you can accomplish this. It's a very respectable thing to be a family man. I wish you all the best!